it's all about Audrey

"The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mode but the true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives the passion that she shows. The beauty of a woman grows with the passing years." - Audrey Hepburn


"For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone."  - Audrey Hepburn 

"I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."   - Audrey Hepburn  

"I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it's the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It's probably the most important thing in a person."  - Audrey Hepburn  

what it feels like to be a kid again

It was a boring Thursday afternoon not to mention that it was my rest day from work,so imagine what I was going through that time,while thinking of what to do I remembered that my bestfriend would soon be leaving the country for a vacation to the Land Down Under for the next three months and that would mean I won't be seeing her face for that long and because of that I texted two of my closest friends: Sandra and Doy,asking what their plan for the day and if they could spare some time with me and go out. At that time I was thinking of going to a theme park that has been publicized for quite sometime now and because I was so intrigued of what is inside the park and knowing these two are always on the go for fun and food that's why I asked them if they could go,unfortunately Sandra can't go with us since she wasn't feeling well at that time,so I was left with my bestfriend Doy,so we both agreed that we will go to S&R first coz she needs to redeem herself from the lasttime we were there since she was not able to eat all the pizza she ordered and it was Sandra who helped her finish her share.

True to her words Doy really redeemed herself when she ate the pizza coz not only was she able to finish her share,she also was the one who finished my shared since I wasn't in the mood at that time since I was sick.After all the eating and drinking and of course all the talking we decided that we would just walk to the theme park since it was just a few blocks away from where we were at that time. It was not at all a boring walk since being with your bestfriend you can always discuss anything under the sun. 

When we arrived at the theme park,we immediately asked what the price range is, checking from outside as to what the rides are and I immediately decided that we just pay the entrance and decide as to what rides we would avail once we're in,and it was really a good idea coz when we were inside the park we saw only one ride that we could avail to our extent,it was named Pirates of the Carribean which is patterned to the Anchor's Away ride of Enchanted Kingdom. I surely had fun screaming at the top of my lungs while Doy who by the way is a thrill seeker seemed to be scared with my scream(wahahaahahahaha),I can't blame her coz at the same time that I was enjoying the ride I was also scared everytime the "ship" would come down from the top(too bad we were not able to take a video). We decided that we would just sit down and talk and enjoy our selves with the view of the children taking advantage of all the other rides and we both can't stop our laughter everytime we hear the children screaming their hearts out....wahahahaha...we took pictures of ourselves and asked some of the crew to take our pictures.

It was boring day that turned out to be a fun day. 

trying my best to promote the free water

smile babs

thanks to ate who took our pic

my feet and babs feet with legs

doy the babs/jetsetter

smile again babs

thanks to the kuya security guard who took this pic

'd climb

the babs

this is a long overdue blog,and i already wrote a lot for this but then I changed my mind and deleted them all and decided to keep it short and simple.

To whatever that is that happened during the trip I thank my friends for always being there when I need them,our friendship has been proven and tested through time but then we stand tall and faced it all,I'm so proud that we are always there for each other whether it be on our good times and most of all on our bad times.

sensitivity

Respect begets respect, is a a phrase that connotes a deep meaning and entails a big responsibility. Today's experience taught me that when we talk about respect it would also mean being sensitive to what others would feel or how they would react to what we say. Sensitivity involves being cautious on how we say things,our tone of voice matters as well as the timing of how we say things. I believed that every individual deserves to be respected ad treated nicely, even if you are too familiar with that person, a certain boundary should be maintained.Well I guess now I learned my lesson.

it's all about him

“...unrequited love does not die; it's only beaten down to a secret place where it hides, curled and wounded. For some unfortunates, it turns bitter and mean, and those who come after pay the price for the hurt done by the one who came before."

I don't know how to write this blog without sounding being such a loser,well yes I am a loser if it's all about him. I was in Junior high when I saw him at our campus religious monthly activity, he is not the typical guy that you'd usually give your second look at, coz he is so simple that you won't barely notice him if not because he was assisting the priest. I must admit it wasn't love at first sight but rather it was a love that grew through time, coz prior to meeting him I had a huge crush with a different guy from my former school. If I remember it right that this feeling all started when a schoolmate asked me if I do like someone and I said yes and when asked to describe the guy it was his description that I bursted out,then it all turned so fast coz the next thing I knew I joined the Liturgical club of our school wherein our main task is to serve the Church everyday and when I say everyday that means from Monday - Saturday we would be giving our time to the Lord by serving the 6:30 am mass and then on Sunday every 10:30am, it was really a sacrifice for me not because it's him that I want to see to start my day right but also because waking up early is not my cup of tea,plus after the service we would just go directly to school and oftentimes I don't go home right away coz there are times wherein I also give my services to the 4:30pm mass, I remember joining the Grand Choir of the Church because the other club member joined the choir too, I remember my mom would scold me everytime I come home late due to practice or due to church service,so going back to him, without knowing my admiration turned  out to be having him as my inspiration(my ultimate crush), and that time autograph signing is so popular that I made a huge sacrifice with my baon coz I saved it to buy an autograph notebook just to have him sign and write down his little note for me,coz oh did I mention that he already knew that kinda like him?yes he knew  because of the freaquent teasing made by our common friend. From the start I knew that he has set his life for priesthood,with that being instilled on my head it was hard but I thought that my feelings for him will just pass by. It was summer of Senior high and I remember I was ironing our family's clothes(a chore I love doing), when I received a call from a common friend that he already went inside the seminary, I was shocked coz it was really unexpected  even if I knew it is bound to happen, I really felt sad that I can't help my tears from falling because I knew that my heart is broken at a young age, I was sad because a few days before that I noticed that we started to build a good friendship, and I was hoping that it would grow into a deeper relationship. I remember going to the Blessed Sacrament almost everyday and made a request to God that if he goes out of the seminary can he be mine, years passed and we all have moved on I went to college and he continued pursuing the path for priesthood we seldom see each other and if ever we do,we still share our customary hi and hello and must I say goodbye, time has passed I graduated college and got a work when I learned that he only finished the first phase of the journey and he has decided to leave the path for priesthood, upon knowing that I was confused of what to feel,whether should I be happy coz I know deep in my heart I'm hoping that there could be us or should be sad coz he lft the seminary,it really took me awhile to decipher what I really feel and when I did know what I should I feel, id ecided to keep it all to myself and just be there for him if he needs a friend. We rarely get to see each other and we both have our respective lives, I was in a long term relationship at that time and I knew from a friend that he was also into a relationship, but that doesn't stop me from liking him still,I never outgrew my feelings for him. I kept myself updated with his whereabouts and hoping that our paths would soon cross, I ended my relationship(not because of him), and I was courted twice around that time and they were all trurned down,not because i was being choosy,but rather because he was the basis of every guy who courted me,and apparently they were incomparable to him. Time has passed, when i suddenly received a text message from a common friend that they saw each other and that friend was telling me that he will him to our house and I felt elated only for awhile coz the next text message that I received was just to inform me that he has plans of settling down, I felt the world turned down upon me, I don't know what to do coz it was like a flashback of memories was shown right infront of me and that was when I realized how much he means to me, I texted all my close friends telling them of what I felt,at that time all I want to do is to air it all out,but I guess telling someone isn't just enough, I felt a tear will fall so I ran to the comfort room and let those tears fall.

I was so into him and my feelings was not even equated the same way, yes I'm deeply hurt that everytime I remember him getting married I just want to cry and burst it all out, I know I have no right to confront him of my misery coz it's not his fault not at all. They say love is letting go,well in a way it is true and with that being said I'm letting him go,sacrificing what I feel for him coz that's how much I love him.


Moving on is not as easy as thought it is, I know a few more tears will fall from my eyes,sleepless nights just thinking of him, but I know I can make it, don't know how soon but in time I know I'll get through this phase of life.



" I didn't lose him,. I let him go. I didn't get over him, I moved on. When you truly love someone, you never lose them or get over them, They'll always mean something to you."